THE CELLAR OF LIFE.

Thursday morning, on the backside of the week. Or at least we are sliding into it. I slept till five and now I cannot get my motor running. At least the one that connects the brain. Its chilly out this morning, not cold, But definitely a nip in the air.

This is one of those mornings when have no idea what to write. I did not prepare ahead of time. No words perched on the edge ready to come to my rescue. No snappy lines to fall back on. A empty vacuum rambles around in my head. This will be hard for those that know me to believe but I am wordless this morning.

I suppose we all have days we are not quite as motivated as others. Usually I can bring forth something to to spark a interest that will fuel my self into action. I am not sure this is going to happen today. I usually do not have dark days. Days when I would like to crawl into the cellar of life and just stay there. Snarling at anyone who approaches as if I was a old dog that someone stepped on. I do not believe anyone would call me Mrs. Sunshine today.

Hopefully as the day edges its way into reality I will snap out of this and get with the program. I have always thought self pity was a total waste of time. Because quite frankly there just isn't anyone who really wants to sit and listen to all your problems and a list of slights you may believe have been heaped on your head. Get over it, on with it. Its very boring to launch a self pity party. Because believe me there is nobody that will want to attend.

Its the same thing when someone gets mad and unleashes a torrent of angry words at you. Of course in self defense we unleash right back all the angry verbs, nouns and adjectives we can muster.I have found this to be so useless. It raises my blood pressure and leaves a totally nasty taste in my mouth. Being mean on purpose can really be a bad feeling. When we know we or at least we feel we are innocent of any wrong doing its hard sometimes to keep my mouth shut. I strongly advise myself to work harder on doing that, just keeping my mouth shut.

Isn't it odd the way people argue, especially couples. Its as if there is a no holds barred sign that flashes on and any subject that might bring the opponent to their knees seems to be fair to use. Actually that's very petty. And I myself refuse to ever be pulled into one of those no holds barred matches again.

There is a little chorus, "Brighten the corner where you are." You know the bare truth is that life just isn't always fair. There are times when people just do not treat us as we think we deserve to be treated. Sometimes there is no one going to pull the light on in your corner but yourselves. So as I write these words, I'm going upstairs and get in my corner and turn on my light. It's time to brighten my corner. I sure hope I can find the light switch.

The Blog makes no sense at all. I sure do have those days. But I am alive, Thank you God for that fact. All is well in Billye land. I hope yours is the same. See ya!