GOOD GRIEF, I'VE BEEN OSTRACIZED.

It is Friday morning. Almost 5:ooam. The rain has stopped but a dampness still seems to hover in the air. I have to get Steve up soon. So I am drinking my coffee and trying to settle my brain into the day.

I wrote awhile back about wanting my sister and I to be put in someones loop. I have had no offers, my sister hasn't either. At least she hasn't mentioned it anyway. Maybe she just doesn't want to hurt my feelings. She could be safely added to someones loop and getting all kinds of information. I have not been added, I am not privy to any one's information. I feel very badly about this. All of the loops over the world and there is not one that will add me into their's. My reputation as a blabber mouth must be making the rounds.

Yesterday I went with my husband to the Dollar store. I went through the line, he went through the line. He was telling the lady behind the check out counter some family news that I did not know. When we started out the door, I asked where in the world he got that information. He told me. I learned this news after the check out lady did at the Family Dollar , and we don't even know her name.

I called my daughter. I asked her if this was true. She said yes. "Why haven't you told me,"I cried. She answered, "I thought you knew." How would I know when nobody tells me anything. I get any family news from Facebook, if they don't put it on there, I don't get it. Facebook is a constant feed. I don't go on all the time. It is written and slips off into cyberland before I can read it.

I looked up the word "Ostracize". The meaning to be "Excluded, or to "Banish." At last I know what has happened to me. I have been "Ostracized." I never even realized it was happening. Banished from my own family. I am totally speechless. And anyone who knows me, knows that never happens. How does one go about being "unostracized?" I feel a little like I have a scarlet letter hanging around my neck. People poke each other. "Look at her." She has been Ostracized from her own family. Poor thing."

Sometimes you just have to face the truth. As painful as it may be.I'm not in a loop. I'm not getting into one. I might as well quit asking. If you are in one of your own. Please don't worry I will keep begging to get in. I'm through with the whining. I have no information. I won't be getting any either. That's okay. I'm tough. I can take it. I even understand why you probably put my sister into a loop and not me. She is sweeter than me. So not only am I a dipsy old lady. I am also a uninformed one. You'll know me when you see me. The spaced out looking lady that doesn't where she is going or with who. That's because I'm not in a loop. So on that sad note and with a heavy heart. I'm outta here..