Starting anew.

Yesterday was the first day I started this blog. I have done nothing but think about it since it was posted. Now I am sure nobody even read it, as I told no one about it. But I decided if I am going to do this. I will try to do it right. As I said yesterday I just decided a couple of days ago I would start a blog. I am getting older, and do not like the way many older people are perceived. And I watched the movie Julie and Julia. I do not think in any way this silly little blog will take off and people will read it. But I have things I want to say. So I guess I will just tell them to cyberspace. Maybe somewhere out there, even one single person will come across this and think this is the way I feel.

Christmas left me with a bad taste in my mouth. Which is a very sad statement to make. But sometimes I feel so overwhelmed when I am in these large family crowds. As if I am being judged and have come up very low on the judgement scale. "Crazy old lady I know they are thinking." But of course getting older hasn't made me that way. I have always been silly, a little step off from everyone else. I want this New Year coming up to be a turning point. I want to just go back to being me. You have heard the saying "Dance like there is nobody watching." That is what I want to do. But then come to think of it, that's usually the way I am. There is a poem by Robert Frost, The last few lines say,
"The woods are lovely, dark, and deep,But I have promises to keep,And miles to go before I sleep,And miles to go before I sleep."
That's how I feel. I have promises to keep and miles to go before I sleep. I will write this blog. And if you are older or think you are misunderstood. Just come along for the miles. Before we sleep.